For the past few months I’ve been noticing two emotions that I used to not feel as strongly as I do now. The first one is anger. I’m mad at everything. Mostly at my parents because they’ve been the biggest pain in my ass recently, but I know thats not all I’m pissed about. I know I’m mad at Tom. And I’m real mad at myself. I’m just mad in general and I’m so fucking ready to fight someone or fuck something up. The second emotion I’ve been feeling is being really fucking scared. Of everything. I’m scared of my feelings, I’m scared of being hurt and of being happy. I’m scared of living and I’m scared of dying. I’m scared of the future and even more of the past. 

idk this is stupid. I’ve just been really scared and really angry and it’s been 6 days since I last cut but I’m so tempted to right now but I know that it’s not gonna make these feelings go away.

I hate these feelings. I feel full of hate and it sucks because I don’t like being this mad but I’m so fucking pissed. I’ve always been an angry person but never this badly. fuck it 

I’ve been trying to draw to keep my mind off things but it never works. I’m so restless. I’ve been staying safe tho and because of that, I’ve become a very angry person. ‘Cause I’m just keeping things bottled up inside with no release.

Please don’t leave

its really tough to feel alone sometimes. loneliness is one of the worst feelings. i miss you

I lock my fingers together when I’m sad and missing you and pretend it’s us holding hands. It just ends up making me miss you more unfortunately.